We are expecting! Which is why I have wrote since Oct! Obviously I haven’t been losing weight (well not on purpose anyway!). I wasn’t sure how to write about losing weight while pregnant so I decided to just wait until we announced it. Although I do really have to say I have missed my blog and am ready to get back to the keyboard! The blog will focus more on our family and the things I’m learning about family along the way. And all the fun of course!
We are currently almost 14 weeks along, due on July 1st 2014. Starting at about 11 weeks we started having slight issues with spotting. And it has continued so far but it has really faded, and has almost completely stopped. as of today anyway! Never really had much cramping but knew I needed to take it super, super easy. I dont know if I am really ready to share this but I think it will be good for me – this summer we had a miscarriage and it destroyed me. But thanks to a lot of love and support from family and friends AND GOD I made it through. It still continues to be a struggle but I’m healing thanks to Gods grace. It does help knowing that the babe is in Heaven, running around in the grass with Jesus (that is what i envision anyway!)
This weekend would have been the birth of the babe. Its hard knowing that today we should have a baby and we are pregnant with another one. please do not misunderstand me. I am so blessed and happy to be pregnant right now. But it is hard knowing we lost this other baby and that I could be holding him/her today. For whatever reason God chose to allow this miscarriage and I am coming to an understanding of this.
When we started spotting again this time I felt so defeated. That we would lose another baby. I had a small amount of time that I felt this way. I finally realized that we hadn’t lost the baby yet and I was going to fight for its life. So my thoughts and prayers changed. I asked for others close to us who knew we are pregnant to also pray. A week after and still spotting I announced to our church that we were expecting and what was happening. I also shared for the first time about the miscarriage. The church did pray for us and I know many of the members continued to pray as they went home. The deacons and pastor surrounded us in prayer and prayed for our babe. The next morning my spirits had been completely refreshed and I felt strong. I know the prayers have helped. We have seen the doctor and everything looked okay. When we had the issues this last summer with the last babe I remember them saying something about the placenta having torn away a bit. I have to wonder if this maybe has happened again. So i have been put on ‘bed rest’ (partial bed rest really) and pelvic rest. I am not picking up much at all and not doing much around the house at all. My family and hubby have been so wonderful and demanding (!) that I take it easy. And i have been! I am making sure I dont know anything to hurt this baby.
Because Baby mommy loves you and I can not wait to meet you this summer! You are strong! Keep holding on for mommy and I’ll keep fighting (while I’m resting) for you.
Happy and Healthy Family 